I wish my head weren’t swimming right now.
So much to do, so much responsibility, so little direction, so little time.
Desperate for the hand of God, but feeling like it’s just out of my reach.
Struggling with what’s going on, feeling so overwhelmed.
The water is clear enough to see the murkiness in it. The sky is bright enough to notice the clouds. The music is quiet enough to hear how loud it is.
Close enough to people to know how alone I am, successful enough to know how much of a failure, sharp enough to know how dull.
I’m on the edge of everything, yet not fully committed to anything. I hover around like a satellite on the edge of space, tenuously hanging between the pull of Earth’s gravity and floating off into the abyss, afraid to go either direction. If I fall towards the Earth I might burn up in the atmosphere. If I let go of gravity’s grip I could float off endlessly into the unknown, the vasty nothingness.
Sick of it all. Sick of the holding back, sick of the pushing forward, sick of the known, sick of the unknown.
The only place I can go for peace is a struggle to get to. Not because I can’t do it but because I won’t commit to it. What happens when I lose control? What happens when I put someone else in charge? What happens? I don’t know. I can’t know.
I have to get there though, I can’t push it aside. If I give up the source of my strength, my only connection to that which holds me up, where does that leave me?
To know You is to never worry for my life
To know You is to never give into compromise and
To know You is to want to tell the world about You
‘Cause I can’t live without YouTo know You is to hear Your voice when You are calling
To know You is to catch my brother when he is falling
To know You is to feel the pain of the brokenhearted
‘Cause they can’t live without YouMore than my next breath
More than life or death
All I’m reaching for, I live my life to know You more
I leave it all behind, You’re all that satisfies To know You is to want to know You more To know You is to want to know You moreTo know You is to ache for more than ordinary
To know You is to look beyond the temporary
To know You is believing that You’ll be enough
‘Cause there’s no life without YouAll this life could offer me
Could not compare to You, compare to You
And I count it all as loss
Compared to knowing You, knowing YouAll this life could offer me
Could not compare to You, compare to You And I count it all as loss
Compared to knowing You, knowing You And I count it all as loss
Compared to knowing You, knowing You
The only way to know You is to seek You, to talk with You. You are more than enough for me, though I feel I’m less than I should be. I have to commit, I have to be willing to do whatever it takes to know You, every day. All other things are secondary.
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